Beautiful

I have had a lot of problems with my self image. Doubts would come to mind when looking in the mirror and I would wonder why I couldn't be pretty. Over the past years, that view has changed. I have changed the way I see myself, and the way others see me. It doesn't mean I don't still have bad mornings, where nothing fits and I feel like the ugliest girl in the world. The truth is, I realized that there are much more important things than the way you look, dress, or style your hair. 

It helped being pulled out of school and doing online classes. Ten years of being bullied by my peers had left a mark. I found my salvation those years in books, and a lot of pretending that words and taunts didn't effect me. The one thing I can say is that being stubborn pays off sometimes. I was never willing to change myself to fit in. I didn't care what the media said or what the Barbie girls had to say- I wasn't going to do it.  Instead I looked toward heroines in my favorite stories and the qualities that made them such great characters. I stayed away from the wayward villains and the vanity of silly characters and focused on the heroine.

On a side note, there are some great books every girl should read:

• North and South by Elizabeth Gaskell
• Emma by Jane Austen
• Little Women by Luisa May Alcott
• All's Fair in Love, War, and High School by Janette Rallison
• Matilda, Ronald Dahl
• Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte.

Let me get back to the point, I have had my fair share of problems when it comes to my self image and self esteem. However, I have been working on changing that and being comfortable as me. I don't think I realized how far I have come in this until the other day.  On Facebook, two of my friends did a challenge and then challenged me to dot the same. The challenge was simple: add five (5) pictures of yourself that made you feel beautiful.  I posted these five:

 

 

 

Only in one of five of these pictures had I done my hair and makeup. In the other four pictures I was dressed in a t-shirt and jeans, no makeup, and hair down and messy. In three of the pictures I was volunteering. In one picture I was with my sister, and talking on Skype with my family. In one I was happily getting ready for the day, and cheesily dancing around my room. I wasn't posed, I wasn't dressed perfectly, and I am happy in all of them.

 

I didn't need to be in makeup, or have my hair brush to notice the beauty. Each picture has a special memory that makes me grin. None of it was planned. I was merely enjoying life.

 

I think that is true beauty. Doing things that make you smile, and enjoying yourself. Smiling, and not scowling. Loving life. Loving what you do, and what you are. Who you are. Being confident, being carefree, being loving. Who you are shows, and if it's a good quality, it adds to your beauty. It's not about makeup and hair and having the perfect clothes. It's about being a good person and having good virtues and letting that shine through. Be beautiful from the inside out, not the outside in. This goes for all you guys too.

 

Girls, you are beautiful. Guys, you are handsome. Show it, shine. Go for it.

I'm Back!

I realize it has been a long time since the last post. I do not have an excuse, I just didn't write.  Writing is a power. I didn't realize this when I started my blog years ago, then it was just a way to write out my random thoughts and day-to-day ramblings. It wasn't meaningful. But then, living in Peru for a year, I started a second blog only dedicated to life in Peru, and mostly to the orphanage. Suddenly I realized how much I could make a difference by what I wrote. I could share with others valuable lessons I learned and influence them to think outside of their day-to-day lives.

Now I am home in Utah, and I realize I am still learning things about myself and the world. Things that matter and are important to me as a human. Because being human is more about others than about myself.

I can't promise never to ramble or add stupid stuff that is pointless, because lets face it, sometimes we need silly and stupid and pointless in our lives. It balances out the responsibility we have, the darkness we face, and the  frowns we waste.  Everything has it's place, as long as there is balance.

I am 19 and loving life. I have so much to learn and so much to teach. I realize that learning includes hardships, and that's okay. I know that I need to teach others because as a person I can make a difference. I don't need to change the world to make a difference- because you never know how far one ripple will go.

So here I go.

What?

It's Monday and I am sitting here listening to Pandora. Can I say I love WiTopia and the ability to make it look like we are in the US so we can use xfinity and pandora and other really cool things.
It's days like this when I realize how many first class problems I have. Like the printer not working. I doubt half the kids in Peru even know what a printer is. 

Anyways, this didn't really have a purpose. I've been spending some time volunteering. Check it out at my other blog. justdarcie-inperu.blogspot.com

Peace,
Darcie

Twenty-Fourteen

So it's Twenty-Fourteen. Actually it's Twenty one days into Twenty-Fourteen.

Here are my highlights of 2013:

 

I graduated from Highschool. It only took three of 'em!

 

 

I graduated from Seminary. The graduation was kind of awkward, but oh well.

 

 

(This was technically at the end of 2012 but whatever)

I saw the Nutcracker for the first time in my life. It was as amazing as I imagined it to be.

 

I celebrated my 18th birthday with my dearest friend and cousin Heidi.

She turned 17 two days before so we celebrated her birthday too.

 

We moved to Lima Peru.

 

It was a HUGE change, despite living in Arequipa before.

 

We went to Orlando, Florida.

 

I saw the Blue Man Group. It was my second time and I loved it,

 I got a t-shirt out of it and some wonderful memories.

 

We did Universal studious for the first time ever. (:

 

 

I got to talk to Zachary twice on skype, on Mothers day and Christmas.

He comes home in September.

As it is now 2014 I thought I should write the 14 things I am most excited for this new year:

• University. Well.. being accepted to a university.  I have a few choices in mind and am looking forward to starting next January.


• Volunteering. I would really like to do something that profits others instead of myself before starting college and getting caught up in the world.


• Friends. I would love to see friends from Canada this year, but I am also looking forward to making new friends. I've already made a few in Peru that I think will still around, so... should be easy, right?


• Writing. I will finish my Macy Celeste story.


• Health. This year I want to be better about myself. Better learn now than when I am 40 and miserable.


• Becoming closer to God. I want to improve my relationship with God.


• Traveling. I hope to see Machu Pichu while living here, and I would also love to visit Lake Titicaca (the floating islands) and see that village on top of the mountain.


• Reading. I want to finish reading all of Jane Austen's novels as well as the rest of my reading list. Which I will get to in a minute.


• Girls night. Cousins only. Its been 6 months since I have seen my gorgeous cousin and I miss her so much, she is my best friend! I have a LONG list of fun things we are going to do this summer. It'll be awesome.


• Sugar Cookie Day. Did you know there is a national sugar cookie day? I found out last month and so, I will be celebrating it this year. It's July 9th so mark it on your calendar.


• Journal. I WILL keep up my journal writing this year.


• Hair cut. I've decided, and I have been thinking this for a while, that I need bangs. So this year when I get a hair cut (waiting for Utah, so like 6ish months) I will not be indecisive.


• New glasses. And contacts. Lets face it- I NEED new glasses, and this year I've decided that contacts would be great too. Yep, a whole new me (again- waiting for Utah)


• Utah. I've mentioned it a few times now- I can't wait to go visit Utah in the Summer. I want to see all my family and sleep in my own bed. Plus I accidently left two pairs of shoes there and would like them back.  My room *sigh* I can just imagine how I left it. I want to see all my things that I left there.

Happy Twenty-Fourteen everyone! Sorry it's twenty one days late!